one.of.the.best.updates. if you ask me. credit to idk. its life and death, it's love and sex. it's everything about you. why'd you have to make this mess? you never really had to the world has turned and left me here
just where i was before you appeared
and in your place an empty space
has filled the void behind my face so i fill my gut with dark red wine, until my brain shuts off and my eyes go blind. you won't see me there in that thick black air. yeah, i'll finally make something disappear. and you can give a dime, give a hand, give a shit, or you could look away and never deal with it. well I know i'll never make things right and I'm fine with this. as long as you sleep well at night. so sleep well at night. cause what's been said i surely meant and i'm happy for you if you're happy without me. cause i like to be gone most of the time, and you like to be home most of the time. if i stay in one place i lose my mind. i'm a pretty impossible lady to be with. i shake and i smile cause you said
"Baby girl, it may take a while, but take the good from the bad"
And never minds are never sure, so never leave them wanting more
What are you waiting for?
How you love is who you are
I dive in and I sink in
And I find new colors to think in I can't change you
When you won't change yourself
See you slowly becoming someone else
I can't blame you for the strength you lack
Scared to give me what you may not get back Ignoring the phone, I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you never heard my voice. You're calling too late, too late to be gracious. You do not warrant long good byes. Do you remember the times when we were just kids? And cardboard boxes took us miles from what we'd miss? Schoolyard conversations taken to heart, and laughter took the place of everything we knew we were not. Do the chairs in your parlor seem empty and bare?
Do you gaze at your doorstep and picture me there?
Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again?
Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight? Feels like wreckless driving when we're talking
It's fun while it lasts and it's faster than walking
But no one's gonna sympathize when we crash
They'll say 'you hit what you head for, you get what you ask'
We'll say we didn't know, we didn't even try
One minute there was road beneath us, and the next just sky Saw you in the lobby, now you never call me
You smiled, then pretended you never saw me. I never finish phrases, I mispell
An open arm is a prison cell
When I said "I hate what I've become"
I lied, I hated who I was. his best intentions are never the same as what he does at the end of the day i'm feeling the tension, don't give me no reasons cause you don't comprehend what i am feeling you never think twice before you break all the rules you gotta be crazy if you think i'm a fool you're giving me something i don't need anymore just give the word and i'll be slamming the door Later on, me and a bottle will hook up to have some fun
Then I'll call your house at 12 to let you know that I'm drunk
Say "I'm sorry, Mr C., I was just looking for your son
How are you, and incidientally do you know if he's out alone?
There is this book he lent to me something like seven months ago
I'm gonna burn it in the street. Be so kind as to let him know.. Left your t-shirt in my room, still smells of you
And the picture you hung on the door lays smashed, 'picture perfect'
Explains now, clearly nothing left but a memory
We only made out, you never kissed me
That's how I learned to hold back all feeling
Quit acting so friendly.
Don't nod, don't laugh all nicely.
Don't think you'll up-end me.
Don't sigh, don't sip your iced-tea.
And don't say "it's been a while.."
And don't flash that stupid smile
Dont ask me, dont ask me, dont ask me how I've been. How many times have we slept side by side but a thousand miles apart?
And how many times have we thought we could finish something we could never even start?
How many times have I said I love you and I hate you in the same breath?
And how many times have we tried to grab something when there was nothing left. | 
